Well It's offical yesterday was the worst birthday anyone could have...not only did I have to watch a two year old all day but I didn't even get payed like his mother said I would...My Bf never called well he did once around 6:15 or so...however I coulden't find my phone so I missed his call, I'm sure the call was to tell me he coulden't call me later that day witch he didn't I drifted in and out of sleep for about four hours hoping against hope he would actualy call me nothing....now it's the next day and I have come to the conclution that I HATE being a Twenty year old!

I have knoticed a trend in my journal's unlike most people who are very light hearted and happy when they post I tend to only post when I feel neglected, maybe it's a subconcous need for human contact witch I am not getting...I want to be more active with my art but right now for some reason I seem incapable. I realy need to stop posting up these journal's becuse I know I sound Emo, -_- I hate Emo's so this is even more annoying to me then most. I have one human actualy on my MSN at the moment and to top it off one that knows my BF and might be abel to calm my nerves a bit...However...He's to busy to talk to me!